23 The steps of a [good] man are directed and established by the Lord when He delights in his way [and He busies Himself with his every step]. Psalm 37:23
Yesterday, I had my first article published. It was exciting, yet at the same time it was an ordinary day. No “let’s celebrate dinner” (I had a kiddie burger from Whataburger), no “fanfare” (I helped a friend set up their blog), just an ordinary day. I praised God it was published and the gospel got out to more people due to that fact, but I KNEW the publishing of that article had NOTHING to do with me. It was all about God and the message of the gospel being pushed out even further to readers! I praised Him that it was chosen for publication and gave ALL glory to Him and went on my simple way.
I got a phone call yesterday from a friend and she wanted for the two of us to submit articles to a writer’s convention to be reviewed and considered as “features”. I told her I felt good about it and I would like to participate. Now, here comes the funny part. All of my life, and I mean ALL of my life, the devil has used a spirit of rejection to keep me from moving forward. I hate to say this, but until last March, he succeeded more times than I care to admit! The devil had to try to “suppress” me again! Not long after we got off the phone I got an email from a man who I used to go to church with. He was always full of charisma (his own) and I could tell he nor his wife cared much for me. He began to tell me he didn’t read my “transmissions” (he was referring to my posts on the blog) and to stop sending them. I did not know he was even getting them. He is in my “google circle” and somehow they are coming to him that way. I used to take these things so personally! Satan knew I would worry, “What did I do? Can I correct it?” I would rack my brain to try to understand why people would get so offended with me. God spoke to me and said, “Juliana, the problem isn’t yours, it is theirs! I am not bringing these people and then you are offending…satan is bringing them to keep you pushed down where you can’t step into what I have for you. He wants you to withdraw into hurt!” I was shocked! I just KNEW something had to be horribly wrong with me. I became severely depressed and I could not take the hurt and rejection any longer! I became reclusive, withdrawn and down, and questioned God as to what purpose I could possibly have in life. I was not in self-pity! I truly felt so horrible, I had begun to reject myself as a person. Little did I know, God had a glorious plan for me and the enemy was trying to stop it! God taught me, that I did have the potential to offend and hurt others. That I should always be aware of my heart motives. If they are pure, and He would show me when they weren’t, then the responsibility for how others acted and reacted to me was not MY fault but their own. I was to keep the responsibility where it belonged! At the same time I was to walk in love! Even Jesus, when He hung so unjustly on the cross said, “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do!” How much more so are we to love in such a manner!
I called my mother (they are “friends” with my parents) and told her what he had said. My mother knew of my former depression over such behavior in the past. She said, “Don’t let this stop you from writing!” When she said that the Lord spoke to me and said, “I may close the door on the writer’s convention to you, but know just because I do, it is because a better one is getting ready to open and if you have walked through that one, you will not be able to walk into the best for what I have waiting.” I told my mother what God said and I rejoiced!! When I woke up this morning, I saw this picture on Facebook! WOW, talk about confirmation!!
Don’t let the enemy oppose you, dear reader! Examine your heart and ask God to reveal anything that may be there that is not glorifying Him. When and IF He does, ask forgiveness and move on deeper into the glory! If there is nothing, let the responsibility of what others do and the attitudes they choose to take stay where it belongs which is on their doorstep. You keeping moving on and up and bother the devil for a change, instead of him bothering you! Your steps are ordered of the Lord. Keep following the Holy Spirit and you will end up exactly where you should be and that is in all of God’s best He has destined for you!
Blessings to you, dear reader! I appreciate you stopping by! I will see you next time!!