Lately, the Lord has really been speaking to me about what I am seeking and if it is what HE would have me to seek. It is so easy to take confession of houses, lands, raises and bonuses, jobs and better jobs and make that our focus. I am not against confessing these things. God wants us to have all these things. If He had not wanted us to have it, He would not have been so specific about what He would do if we tithe and give. He tells us He will open the windows of heaven and pour out a blessing on us we cannot contain. He said pressed down, shaken together and running over men would give to us.
I love that scripture, but never does He tell us to seek these things. He tells us to “seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you.” How many times have I made these very confessions and never thought anything about the kingdom of God or His righteousness, only the things that would be added. How many times have I asked for a dream home, when I should have been asking for wisdom! How many times have I asked for material things, when I should have asked God to show me what I could do with what I already had to bless others.
Proverbsway.com had a Mother Teresa quote recently. This particular one hit me right between the eyes and has come up before me in my prayer time and in my thought life over and over. She said the following,
I am not sure exactly what heaven will be like, but I know that when we die and it comes time for God to judge us, he will not ask, ‘How many good things have you done in your life?’ rather He will ask, ‘How much love did you put into what you did?
― Mother Teresa
God is not going to ask me did I get my dream home, did I ever drive a BMW, did I earn recognition for my creativity, did I make a six figure salary. He isn’t even going to ask DID I SERVE!!!! He is going to ask HOW MUCH LOVE DID I SERVE WITH! He is going to ask did I serve those who were considered inconsequential by people with as much vigor and “love” as I did those I wanted to impress, who were considered “somebody” by the world’s standards, whether Christian or secular.
At that point I began to look. Who had I served? I served my family with love…but don’t most wives and mothers? I served my pastors with love, but they are always so loving and generous toward me…it is easy to serve those who love you and treat you with great kindness! I had served my parents, but again, I love them because they are my mom and dad. WHO had I truly served out of a heart of the love of God?
It hit me, the whole time I was confessing houses and lands, raises and bonuses, jobs and better jobs, cars, and wearing the “best”, I should have cried out, “God, take away a stoney heart and give me a heart of flesh! Give me eyes that see the needs of others, and the good in people. Give me godly wisdom and sense! Give me Your desires for my life, which is to love my neighbor as myself, and to be more interested in loving and serving You and bringing that love in physical form to the lost, than in serving my wants and desires and using YOU as an excuse to fulfill vanities!!
I had a pastor’s wife once who was big on material confession. I am not against confessing these things, I AM against them being our focus!! My brother had been to New York on a business trip. While he was there, he bought my daughter and me Coach purses. These purses, if they are original, come with some type of certificate to verify their authenticity. They are wrapped in a special cloth that says, “Coach” on it. As we were leaving prayer meeting one day, she asked me about my purse. I told her my brother had bought if for me and she immediately asked me for the “verification paper”. It was a major thing to her that I produce it, otherwise it wasn’t really what it said it was. I was in complete shock! How rude for one thing to insult the gift my brother had given me, but how sad her interest in me that day was whether my purse was a fraud or not instead of who and what I was in God . What had happened to this lady? She had confessed material things so much, she had become consumed with materialism. Oh, that we are that concerned over the lost and hurting as we are over ”high-end” purses!
After meditating on this quote, I envisioned the day I will stand before God and hear this question. What would I say? How much of that very love had I really served with? I didn’t like what I saw. I was shocked at the little reward I was really going to receive. My prayers changed that day. I began to literally cry out to God to fill me with compassion above all else. I cried out for eyes that see as He sees and ears that hear the voice of my good Shepherd and that I am an obedient daughter. I repented, that I too had fallen into the vanities of life, and not fallen more in love with the cause of Christ!
Ask yourself, precious reader this question. Envision what your answer will be. If you have gotten off focus, you still have the chance to change it! Praise God for His mercy and new days! How wonderful He “brings us to ourselves”!
Blessings to you! May we grow in wisdom and revelation of His word and, more than anything, in our love to all mankind!