I look over the past five months and they are bittersweet. Great memories were made with my parents I would not have had, had we not sold our home. I cherish those days! I learned how to cook on a gas stove without blowing the whole thing up or even starting a fire! For this Lucy, that is HUGE!! I learned how to throw breakers back on, what causes them to blow in the first place, and learned a bit about electricity and wiring. Not too shabby!
Our days in this lifestyle are quickly ending. The appraiser for the new house has been scheduled, and in the meantime, I lie in bed at night and ‘daydream’ of every nook and cranny of the new house and where I am going to put every piece of furniture, hang every picture, and what color valances I put up will be.
Yesterday, Momma and I went to shop for shower curtains…another precious memory for me. After almost losing her 2 years ago, I grab and hold every one I get! I turned Momma loose basically. We had so much fun oohing and ahhing over shower curtains, towels, fingertip towels, and throw rugs!
I see hubby on his cherished riding lawn mower mowing a gorgeous 4.5 acres. His Aggie hat is on his head and a smile is on his face as he rides the mower to a grove of Oaks near the edge of the property line where deer often come out to play and graze. His dream has come true, too!
Things I have needed for the new house I have found very easily! I can see God leading me even in the most simple of things concerning this new adventure, and great beginning of this new journey!
I have come to love the lady we are buying this house from. I never knew she lived in our town. How can I be somewhere for 53 years, live in a small town and not know everyone in it? She is a jewel! There is no way to NOT love her!!
She is a Christian lady and a very godly woman. The moment I met her I liked her. Warmth emanates from her smile and gentleness from her kind eyes. She is selfless and giving! I look forward to little things to tell her because it gives me an excuse to talk to her.
We talk about things with the house, but our great pleasure is when we talk about the Lord. She goes through the same emotions about the house I do. She voices them to me and it is as if she has read my mind. I confess I have those thoughts about all of this, too. We laugh because our beliefs, emotions, and opinions are so similar! In some cases they are identical! I have found a friend for life I believe…oh, how God thinks of everything!
I am amazed at what can happen in such a short period of time. The last time I wrote, I was basically homeless, living in a travel trailer, and the end was not in sight…literally! Tonight is a different story altogether!
On July 9, 2014, which was a Wednesday night, a message in tongues went out in my church and the interpretation was as follows:
Now is not the time to back up. Stand your ground. I have picked a place for you. Stand and see it through!
That day I had looked at houses with hubby and we found nothing! We ended up yipping at each other out of frustration. He was frustrated with me because I was ready to compromise our dream and I was mad at him because he wanted to stand his ground and not face ‘reality’. I did not think he was facing the reality of our economic situation and he didn’t think I was placing my faith in God as it should be. Guess who was right? You got it! HUBBY!!
When I heard that prophecy from someone who had no idea what had happened that day, there was no doubt God was speaking to me. There was hope and a light at the end of the dark tunnel, as God put it that night in another interpretation.
The next night I heard from a cousin I had not seen in over 32 years! We had reconnected on Facebook and talk from time to time. This particular night when I got online, a private message popped up almost immediately from her. She wanted to know if hubby and I were still looking for a house in the country. I sent a resounding, ‘YES‘ back to her and it was on!
She told me of a beautiful 4.5 acre property with a large and gorgeous house in the center of it. It has a yard full of gorgeous Oak trees with a beautiful ‘Ranch’ style house! It is everything I had wanted and asked God for. It also had some extras I didn’t think about like an outdoor kitchen with a covered patio with a big screen television to boot! I had not even stepped into the house yet! All this greeted me outside before I ever got to the door!
Why would I expect anything less? God, Himself picked this house out for us!! How great is our God!! Stay tuned for more on this story and pictures!! I have a feeling it isn’t over yet and will only get better!
You learn a great deal about yourself when you go through rough times. Now, it hasn’t been all that rough lately, but I do wonder what God is up to. For the life of me I cannot figure it out! To catch you up if you are new let me fill you in. About 6+ months ago, when I was in prayer, God spoke to me to sell our house. Hubby prayed about it, too and up on the market it went. It sold for the full amount we were asking lickety split! Now, we live in a travel trailer because we cannot find the next home.
During this time we have felt God’s grace and peace on us, but I am beginning to feel unsettled. I want my house, I want to know where it is, and I want to know what our purpose in all of this has been and what it is to be. I have offered everything to God…my life, our possessions, and if anything is left I truly don’t know what it is!
I have a cousin who is in her eighties. She is beautiful, sassy, still wears high heels every day of her life, and she is a free spirit. She and her husband have been in the ministry for over 60 years. I remember them coming home from ministers’ conferences and Momma would get a phone call and my cousin would say, “Well, we are packing up and moving to Kansas! We have decided to pastor a church there!’ We would drive to their house across town, and true to my cousin’s adventurous nature and words, there would be her husband’s truck and her car loaded up with boxes of towels, kitchen supplies, and pieces of furniture.
I remember this same cousin once sold every possession they owned and bought a travel trailer (this was in the 70′s) and they went on the road to be evangelists. She home schooled her son, their daughter was in college, and off they went as we waved until we could see them no more.
Many people tell me I look like this cousin. I can see it profoundly! I look in the mirror and there is her face staring back at me. Many tell me I act like her, which I never agreed with. Since we sold our house, I am beginning to see it more. I can see selling everything we own, packing up, applying for seminary, and graduating to other things in life.
I have done things lately I never thought I could do. I can fix full meals on a gas travel trailer stove without blowing us all sky-high or without catching the whole place on fire! I truly never thought I could do that! I even deep-fried hot water cornbread and lived to eat it!
I can see waving good-bye to friends and family to go into territory only God has been to ahead of us. But, what if that isn’t what God sees? Unless God builds the house the laborers labor in vain. I tell the Lord, ‘God is this what You want? Do you want us to sell all we have and pursue a life of service solely to and for you? What do You want and why won’t You tell us?” All my life I have waited for something it seems. All my life I feel like I have been at the back of the line. If that is where my place is that is fine, but why then do I feel it isn’t? And if it isn’t, then where? I have so many questions and so few answers. This one is ongoing. I am still waiting to see the end of this new beginning…
Two nights ago I told my daughter goodnight for the last time in the house she grew up in. I saw tears as they began to stream down her face as I released her from our nightly hug. I knew what it was. This house is the only ‘home’ she has ever known. She lived at college for 3 years but I found out she cried there, too.
No greater compliment can a child give a parent than to cry because they are leaving ‘home’. This time home was house, a structure. What truly makes a home is the family that dwells in it. I reminded her of that and that we would still be together because she moved with us.
The move is still going on. We are all exhausted! This is our first night in our new place and the first thing to happen was the kitchen faucet broke into pieces. Water sprayed everywhere like an exploding volcano. Water dripped from the cabinets, the ceiling, and it spilled all over the floor. My husband quickly turned the valve off and I can say the place is now spotless! :)
I could feel the angst building in us all. Even Gracie is tense and seems scared. God reminded me this is when we are to become very sober and vigilant, as it says in 1 Peter. The enemy was doing everything he could to steal our joy and to bring upset and strife among us on a day we should have been celebrating.
After we had cleaned our temporary home, the Lord reminded me of something Reverend Mark Hankins says. He cites the scripture ‘Count it all joy when you fall into various trials and temptations….” He ends it by saying with each trying thing that comes you say, ‘One joy, two joy, three joy!” NEVER let satan rob you of your life giving joy! It is your strength!
There was a book by the title of “If the Devil Can’t Steal Your Joy, He Can’t Keep Your Goods” by Jerry Savelle. That title says it all. When it rains, get under God’s umbrella of protection by staying in the spirit! He says He hides us in the cleft of the rock. We are safe from the storms that come to steal our peace, joy, and confidence in the Lord.
How quickly our situation could have soured if we had chosen wrong attitudes. How we could have prolonged the blessing the Lord has already prepared in advance! Nope…not this time! It feels good to grow up. It is wonderful knowing that the very things you would have fallen for before, God has brought you to a place you see it coming and you know how to avert it!
We are home, though temporarily in this ‘structure’, and this is an enjoyable season of our life! God has blessed us, and even in our exhaustion, we are going to be thankful and relish it! We are together and God is in our midst…what greater home could you have?
I was posting recipes. God had spoken to me to add them in, albeit temporarily. I have to say, they were popular and I am glad I was able to share some things my mom and grandmother shared with me, but the purpose of this blog is not to share recipes. I never intended it to be a recipe blog site.
Jesus said it best when He said it isn’t what goes into the stomach that is important but what comes out of the mouth. In other words, you have to eat, but more important than your physical body is the nurturing of your spirit! What comes out of your mouth shows the substance of your heart and it also shows what your mind thinks about. Your mouth shows you what you are made of and you will either speak life or death. There is power in your tongue, so there is power in your mouth!
An acquaintance and fellow writer told me one time, “If you want readers, don’t write devotions. People aren’t interested in devotions or Christian literature anymore.” I felt like someone had slapped me! Our lives should EVOLVE around Jesus. You will only GO as far as you GROW.
We need to know how to hear from God, how to get a grasp on God’s direction for our lives, how to have a spirit of wisdom and revelation at work within us. Solomon didn’t ask for an exotic food or decorating sense or how to look like a ‘celebrity’ when God told him to ask anything from Him and He would grant it. He asked for wisdom!
Wisdom should be the main thing we all are searching for, and if you are smart, you will search for it in Jesus Christ. Even demons know Jesus is God so don’t pretend you don’t. Deep down, you absolutely know it!! Many just do not want to admit it. Admit it while you can for the day will come when it will not be able to save you from hell and it will be too late…you will admit it one day anyway. Every tongue is going to confess Jesus Christ is Lord the Bible says! Do it now while you can still save your soul!!
You will find me bolder. I am not here to pacify you, nor am I here to sooth wrong thinking. I don’t mean to offend, but if the truth hurts then let it change you instead of fighting it. You will lose every time! The truth always stands…ALWAYS! You are fighting a losing battle and why would anyone want to continue to be wrong?
I have found I don’t have to back down from any thing God has called me to do. At the moment, I have sold my home and we are without a real address. I am not homeless. Thank God for a Christian couple who opened their home to us temporarily, but I had to let go of what I had to move into what God has and is preparing for me and my family. I will be writing on more of this adventure in faith in the near future.
I have gone from being ‘safe, steady as she goes, no changes’ to being a risk taker in God! By faith, my family will step into literal air this Friday. God will show us the direction we are to go as we listen and we will go where He says. I guess you could say I am flying, wide open! I hope you enjoy the journey with us.