Two nights ago I told my daughter goodnight for the last time in the house she grew up in. I saw tears as they began to stream down her face as I released her from our nightly hug. I knew what it was. This house is the only ‘home’ she has ever known. She lived at college for 3 years but I found out she cried there, too.
No greater compliment can a child give a parent than to cry because they are leaving ‘home’. This time home was house, a structure. What truly makes a home is the family that dwells in it. I reminded her of that and that we would still be together because she moved with us.
The move is still going on. We are all exhausted! This is our first night in our new place and the first thing to happen was the kitchen faucet broke into pieces. Water sprayed everywhere like an exploding volcano. Water dripped from the cabinets, the ceiling, and it spilled all over the floor. My husband quickly turned the valve off and I can say the place is now spotless! :)
I could feel the angst building in us all. Even Gracie is tense and seems scared. God reminded me this is when we are to become very sober and vigilant, as it says in 1 Peter. The enemy was doing everything he could to steal our joy and to bring upset and strife among us on a day we should have been celebrating.
After we had cleaned our temporary home, the Lord reminded me of something Reverend Mark Hankins says. He cites the scripture ‘Count it all joy when you fall into various trials and temptations….” He ends it by saying with each trying thing that comes you say, ‘One joy, two joy, three joy!” NEVER let satan rob you of your life giving joy! It is your strength!
There was a book by the title of “If the Devil Can’t Steal Your Joy, He Can’t Keep Your Goods” by Jerry Savelle. That title says it all. When it rains, get under God’s umbrella of protection by staying in the spirit! He says He hides us in the cleft of the rock. We are safe from the storms that come to steal our peace, joy, and confidence in the Lord.
How quickly our situation could have soured if we had chosen wrong attitudes. How we could have prolonged the blessing the Lord has already prepared in advance! Nope…not this time! It feels good to grow up. It is wonderful knowing that the very things you would have fallen for before, God has brought you to a place you see it coming and you know how to avert it!
We are home, though temporarily in this ‘structure’, and this is an enjoyable season of our life! God has blessed us, and even in our exhaustion, we are going to be thankful and relish it! We are together and God is in our midst…what greater home could you have?
Recently someone said something to me that really stung! At first, I thought “What a mean thing to say!” But as I thought more about it, of course my mantra of, ‘this is the devil wanting you to be offended’ came to my mind, followed by ‘don’t let him win!!’ The odd thing was, God pushed that whole mantra away and asked me this, “Did it hurt? Why did it hurt?”
Hurt feelings many times originate from a state of PRIDE! Isn’t it funny what failed satan is the number one thing that traps us? Everything stems back to it. Offense, jealousy, anger, selfishness, and I could go on with a million more sins, but they all originate and stem back to “How dare you treat me this way” or “How dare you not give me my way” to “That is offensive to me”! When you hear a lot of these words “my, mine, I, me” be on the look out for PRIDE! They are telltale signs!
As I thought about what this person said and why it ‘wounded’ me to the core, God told me to look deeper. When something stings it is usually because a wound is superficial or near the surface. If you have a sore and something acidic touches it, it hurts! Something about this person’s comment stung me. Why did it do that? Because what they said had a degree of truth in it and it touched my, oh so sensitive, pride! If there had been no truth to it, it wouldn’t have bothered me. I would have disregarded it, laughed even, knowing it was bunk! But it wasn’t bunk.
Oh, this person had pulled my emotional bandage off and spoke an abrasive truth to me! Nevertheless, abrasive or gentle, it was truth! Without knowing it they had done me a favor…they caused me to face truth in my innermost being. They had not meant to be mean or insensitive, but that is how I took it. Another sign of pride. Love believes the best and I chose to believe the worst! That is not walking in love. The opposite of love is PRIDE! Oh, there is that ugly word, yet again!
As I began to deal with the fact I had let an old sin creep in without realizing it, I had to thank God for this person’s honesty toward me. I also had to choose my attitude about it. Since it had caused me to face my innermost being and what laid there, I had to be grateful. Without truth and repentance you don’t get the blessing of peace, joy, the overflow of the anointing where you pray and before your eyes miracles happen. There is a price for everything and for that kind of power and anointing the price is selflessness! It is putting ‘me’ aside and letting God increase in me. It is letting go of the immature and selfish ‘ID’ and dying to ME!
Did it hurt? Look deeper, dear friend! If it did, more likely than not, you have some soul searching to do yourself! Please God and be honest in your innermost being. It may hurt for a moment, but the benefits of repentance and choosing God’s way are endless. We all have to grow up at some point and the sooner we do the better life will be! I hope after reading this you never see “hurt” quite the same way again. Let it empower you, not disarm y0u.
121 I will lift up my eyes to the hills— From whence comes my help? 2 My help comes from the Lord, Who made heaven and earth.
3 He will not allow your foot to be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. 4 Behold, He who keeps Israel Shall neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The Lord is your keeper; The Lord is your shade at your right hand. 6 The sun shall not strike you by day, Nor the moon by night.
7 The Lord shall preserve you from all evil; He shall preserve your soul. 8 The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in From this time forth, and even forevermore.
New King James Version (NKJV)
7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean; Wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8 Make me hear joy and gladness, That the bones You have broken may rejoice. 9 Hide Your face from my sins, And blot out all my iniquities.
12 Restore to me the joy of Your salvation, And uphold me by Your generous Spirit.